I hush my lips
and close my eyes.
I will not say a word.
Emotions stalled,
My pulse is low.
Even screaming,
I’m unheard.
The rain beats down,
The thunder roars,
I stand frozen in my steps.
Black winds blow
A chilling breeze
As I stand
Soaking in regrets.
I close my eyes,
I go to sleep,
Still no comfort
comes to me.
In my mind,
The vision fades that,
In the past,
had set me free.
I cut the vein,
I spill the blood,
To prove
there’s life within.
Cover the scars,
Paint the smile,
So on the inside,
I can mend.
I hush my lips
and close my eyes.
I will not say a word.
Emotions stalled,
My pulse is low,
Even screaming,
I’m unheard.
I wrote this poem following sexual assault in 2007. It is not a cry for help. But for others, poems like this are a cry for help. Pay attention to the blogs you read! People need to know they matter.
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Damn. I’m speechless. Just wow.
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I can identify with this very well, right down to the scars. Even though my mental health has become more stable these days, I still have my times where I’m not OK, and no one seems to be there to help me, and I must do something to make it real. I am starting work in therapy on incest, but am going only every other week. Scars have been picked off, and I don’t have any band aids to cover them with.
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The hardest thing about therapy with pain that runs as deeply as trauma like yours is that it often gets harder before it gets easier. I ran from therapy the entire time I was in it. I still do. So, do better than I do. See it through. Push through it. And if you need a listening ear, I’m always here, too. ♥
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Thanks for being there. It is going to be very difficult, because everything that comes up makes me feel full of something awful that I’m not sure that I can even put a name to. I feel so disgusting.
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Great piece, so relevant right now… so many people hurting right now, a sense of not being heard and attended to.. 😦
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great piece… so relevant right now….;-) Grace this is so needed within our society, as so many are hurting….:-(
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♥ So true, dear. So true.
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I have a sticker on my cellphone that says “people matter” and I wrote “pay attention” under it as a reminder to look away from my phone and connect as much as possible to those around me that I might miss otherwise.
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That makes you pretty amazing in my book! ♥
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Hey. I try. 😉
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